The best and worst part about being a dancer is that if you feel like staying home and watching Netflix and drinking a glass of wine instead of going to work, you can. You don't have to call out or make up some lame excuse. In fact, in the event you do end up getting that "are you working tonight" text from the manager working that shift, you can very well reply back "No, I am laying here on my couch watching SOA and I will see you when I see you". On the flip side, because there is no obligation to go, it literally feels like a chore to go into work.
Okay, I know. Some clubs have you sign up for certain shifts in which you must work, however I have never chosen to work at those.
I chose not to go into work tonight. I'm sure I told someone I would be there, but I just couldn't bring myself to go. Not only was I watching SOA & drinking a glass of wine, but I suppose I felt I would rather be alone tonight than entertain a bunch of rowdy guys after the basketball game. Tonight is my father's birthday.. whom I lost almost 2 years ago. I had every intention of going after I made his favorite meal for dinner, sang happy birthday, shared cupcakes with my son & put him to bed, but I just couldn't go in. Something about going on his birthday just didn't feel right, even though when he was alive he knew what I was doing. There will always be another shift.
I am on break from school for an entire 10 days and it feels AMAZING. Going more than one day without studying feels like I am doing something wrong. However, I am enjoying this time off as much as I can. I just finished my last clinical rotation at the hospital (all ICU) and this next term will be my easy bachelor's classes, so I finally have a weight lifted off my shoulders for a while.
Hallelujah for sleep.
